I’m starting to think about MdS as a restful vacation with a bit running thrown in. I’m not underestimating the desert...
Behind: A Running Mother’s RantLiza
I am standing at the computer typing with one hand rocking a grumpy baby back and forth. I have not showered or washed last night’s dishes. Clean laundry is in piles on beds and in baskets. Dirty laundry is still unpacked in bags from the weekend in the garage. My desk is hidden under paperwork. I’ve stopped updating my To Do list. None of that is really bothersome. Everything, including me, will be cleaned up eventually. The To Dos will get done. Late. But they’ll get done. And Ruby is a dear baby who is good to hold. But I also haven’t run for the last three days. And that is hard. I don’t do well when I don’t run. And I’m not where I need to be as far as my training and racing goes. I really don’t do well when I start to feel behind with my training. And there are actually some important reasons for me to be training hard right now. And sure, I could have gotten up at 4am and run — or run last night after Eliot got home. I could have done that Monday and Tuesday too. But I am so very tired. A friend who watched Ruby when she was fussy once said, “Oh, it was no problem. Babies are easy when you’re not sleep deprived.” And that’s the truth.
So there is my rant. I realize not being able to run is not a real problem in the grand scheme of things. And I know I’ll be able to train well again eventually — and that this a very tiny hurdle to get over compared to what others have overcome. But that doesn’t help with the frustration of constantly not getting the running done that I need to get done.
Shaking my bloggy fist at the virtual sky helped a bit. Thanks.
And Happy Valentine’s Day!